November 5, 2009

I've found a god groove in my work. I know I've found a good groove when it doesn't feel like I'm working that much, but my weekly work hours report says I'm putting in over fifty hours per week.

Teaching at Namwianga is still proving to be a challenge, but the girls are really just soaking it in so I do feel this is where I'm suppose to be. They cancel classes and change the schedule so much, but don't find it necessary to tell me. In some ways I'm upset, but on the flip side it allows me to just show and say I'm going to meet with my girls at the normal time... I think have a schedule is just so important for communicating the importance of what's being taught and at the same time teaching the students responsibility for following a schedule. So I continue to show up and they continue to say okay, we'll go get the girls and tell them they're still meeting with you. :)

I know that Satan does NOT want me to share the truth with these girls - he desperately doesn't want them to be free and to know the love they crave can only be found in God. God loves each of them so so much and has plans for each of them. I know that I am making Satan angry by sharing about sexual purity with these girls because they are being empowered to stand up against the sexual sin that has weaseled it's way into the Zambian culture.

Even though the lack of organization and communication on the administrative level at the school astonishes me, I know that I just need to be faithful to what god has called me to do and that He will take care of the rest. I want to be more prayerful too over these girls. I want them to be covered in prayer, but I know the will only happen if I take the initiative to pray for hem. Even here I find myself getting "busy" with tasks... getting things done which I have something tangible to show for. Prayer is hard for me because I don't have anything tangible to show for it most times. Yes, God answers prayers and His provisions daily I know are answers to prayer, but other things like writing curriculum, working out, making journals for girls, going and meeting with people... those things others see as works I am doing. But I know that those things - those tasks - should not be my focus. Relationships and my relationship with Christ should be first priority. It's easy to get caught up in the tasks because pretty much everything we do here is considered missions work. I've lately just been convicted to be in prayer much more than I am... to make it the way of my life - not just part of my life - but that my legacy would be one of prayer. Prayer is such a powerful weapon and God longs to meet with each of us. Will you join me in committing to live a life of prayer? If we do I know we will see so much more that God has planned for us all along!